title: you make me complete
written on: Friday, December 26, 2008 | 6:08 PM
"human beings are funny. they long to be with people they love but refuse to admit openly. some are afraid to show even the slightest sign of affection because of fear. fear that their feelings may not be recognized or, even worse, returned. but one thing about human that puzzles me the most is their conscious efforts to be remotely connected with their object of affection, even if it kills them slowly within.
-Sigmund Freud"
hindi ko talaga makakalimutan tong paskong to. december 25, 2008. maraming salamat GABRIEL MANAHAN :) binuo mo ulet ako. buong buo. kaya ngayong akin ka na, hindi ko na hahayaang mawala ka ulet. i love you so much!
Labels: bookmark, lurve, new
title: i need to be happy
written on: Friday, December 19, 2008 | 10:02 PM
"it takes a thousand sweet efforts to build up a great relationship. yet one fatal error can destroy everything yo have started."
gab: sorry
naisipan kong hindi replayan pero pagdating ng gabi, hindi din ako nakatiis. namimiss ko na talaga siya. nag-tag pala ung bookmark ko. hindi ko na pala alam kung dapat ko pa siyang i-refer to as akin. wala lang. naaalala ko kahapon ung mga magandang nangyari. ung masasaya. :') nakaka-iyak. ung manila paper din tinangka kong basahin. err. pero naiyak nanaman ako... *smile* siguro. i'll hold on to those sweet memories nalang. hindi ko hahayaan mag-fade sila.
sarap magmahal. mahirap nga lang pag nararamdaman mong mag-isa ka nalang and you're slowly slipping away.
Labels: bookmark, emo, lurve
title: :') blue-est christmas
written on: Wednesday, December 17, 2008 | 2:42 AM
"i guess, love does fade. that sometimes, the heart does get tired of longing, hoping. that sometimes, you just have to accept that some things can never be. and that you should be contented with things as they are. leaving is a choice, staying is a choice. but you can never really ask someone to stay or leave. it's a choice they have to make for themselves. and sometimes, no matter how much you beg someone to stay or to leave, you really have no control over what they will choose."
eka: gab (sabay halika gesture)
gab: *hmm?*
eka: may bibigay lang ako sayo
gab: salamat. wala ako eh.
eka: *nods at tinry magsmile pero wa-epek*
parang ayaw niya ko maka-usap or makita. kelangang idaan sa tawa. *smile eka* kelangang makuntento. after all, hindi na siya saken. hinding hindi na. i wonder if one time, babalik... arrgh. kahit gaano ko gustong sumuko na, nagkakaroon pa din ako ng pag-asa. ang hirap naman ng ganito. kelan kaya ako makaka-alis sa ganitong sitwasyon. kelan kaya Papa God?
mahirap talaga talaga talaga. masaya siya *pout* habang ako, naghihintay na lingunin niya ako. nararamdaman ko na talaga. napagkanda-blue ng christmas ko. siguro dahil hindi kami nagkasama nung last days. sabi niya kahit isang araw lang magkakasama kami. eto naman akong si tanga, aasa-asa. sauce. wak na nga.
sana nalang maalala niya ako lagi sa binigay ko.
Labels: bookmark, christmas, lurve
title: the wretched christmas party day
written on: Tuesday, December 16, 2008 | 9:55 PM
siguro ito na ang pinakamalungkot kong christmas party. grabe talaga. ilang beses kong nakitang... err. ayoko na.
Labels: whatever, wretched
title: my bookmark
written on: Sunday, December 14, 2008 | 10:19 PM
introducing... my bookmark
hindi ko po maiwasang hindi mapogian mga kaibigan. sabi nga ni annatan, pang-model daw eh. nawala talaga galit ko eh :D
Labels: bookmark, fling, pogi
title: my first broken heart
written on: |
love is like a shoe. you can't walk without the other pair. if you lose your pair and you're with another shoe, it doesn't feel right... everything seems wrong. so if you think you have the perfect person and you make a good pair, take care of it.
sabi ko hindi na ako maghihintay. pero hindi ko mapigilan. masarap talagang maghintay at umasa. lalo na sayo. kahit na shattered na ako ng bonggang bongga at hindi mo ako nirereplayan, ni sinasagot... andito padin ako. i will not stop waiting for you... even if it means a liftime :')
have a meery christmas
Labels: bookmark, lurve, senti
title: december 1st
written on: Monday, December 1, 2008 | 12:39 AM
"do you know why people kill themselves? because they want to prow that somebody cares when they die."
yup. december 1st. two months since he broke up with me. a few days before our monthsary. i just still can't stand the pain. pero i'm trying my best not to show him that i'm still hurting. after all, hindi ako ang nawalan. contentment is the what counts.
kanina, practice, i love staring at him pero hindi puwede. hindi dapat. galit ako and i'm not supposed to look him the "puppy-stare." mejo malungkot siya kanina. he was alone. maybe he's already regretting *evil laugh* umiiral nanaman pagkamaldita ko :D
anyway, last nov 30, i texted prince gian. pero di naman nag-work-out :D ang landi eh. haha. gusto ko lang naman ng kausap.
me: super advanced happy birthday!
prince gian: thanks! who's this?
me:si eka to :D batchmate ni aj.
prince gian: thanks!
tapos kanina, we [aj and me] went to vcf to see him. hehe. turn-off kasi ang tagal niya pero ok na din :D
oh and hey! i changed my cellphone number :D
Labels: fling, kilig, sad
 here we go again
 i'll talk less and you'll know me more.
ma. erika b. becoñado erika, eka, eks, ek, ka, karot, ekarot, baby, papi, kapatid, kopi, pankeik. Dil, QC. Philippines. 070493, 16 years young. UPIS, senior high. UPISSCA, Sangguniang Pangwika. Pep Squad: Tambolero.
in-love, loving in silence. effusive. cuddler. capricious. sticky. trembly. emo? bitch. sentimental. cry-baby.  drama queen. musically-inclined. receptive. sticky. malambing. secretive. tender. touchy. vampire. nocturnal. bookworm. claustrophobic. bajista. gitarista.
 LURVES: soundtrip. mcdo. vampire wars. fashion wars. yo ville. farm ville. pc/laptop. unlitxt20. ice cream. vanilla shake. chocolate. candies.
 toasts. brownies. cupcakes. onigiri. starbucks [chocolate cream chips frappe]. sisig. fresh milk. lollipop. sushi.  strawberry. pictures. love quotes. love stories. slurpee. the sun. beach. nail polish. nike. yellow. plushies. bears. UP18. beyonce. NSYNC. westlife. taylor swift. lady gaga. paramore. vintage. stripes. privacy. doodles. books. mushrooms.
 HATES: metal. hiphop. noise. the rain. backstabbers. plastic. over-acting. kulang sa pansin. kill-joy. spoiled brats. selfish. people who are not aware or those who simply don't think about other's feelings around them. rudeness and all of its components. violence and its forms. the dark. physics and chemistry and MATH. group messages. competitive-ness.
title: you make me complete
written on: Friday, December 26, 2008 | 6:08 PM
"human beings are funny. they long to be with people they love but refuse to admit openly. some are afraid to show even the slightest sign of affection because of fear. fear that their feelings may not be recognized or, even worse, returned. but one thing about human that puzzles me the most is their conscious efforts to be remotely connected with their object of affection, even if it kills them slowly within.
-Sigmund Freud"
hindi ko talaga makakalimutan tong paskong to. december 25, 2008. maraming salamat GABRIEL MANAHAN :) binuo mo ulet ako. buong buo. kaya ngayong akin ka na, hindi ko na hahayaang mawala ka ulet. i love you so much!
Labels: bookmark, lurve, new
title: i need to be happy
written on: Friday, December 19, 2008 | 10:02 PM
"it takes a thousand sweet efforts to build up a great relationship. yet one fatal error can destroy everything yo have started."
gab: sorry
naisipan kong hindi replayan pero pagdating ng gabi, hindi din ako nakatiis. namimiss ko na talaga siya. nag-tag pala ung bookmark ko. hindi ko na pala alam kung dapat ko pa siyang i-refer to as akin. wala lang. naaalala ko kahapon ung mga magandang nangyari. ung masasaya. :') nakaka-iyak. ung manila paper din tinangka kong basahin. err. pero naiyak nanaman ako... *smile* siguro. i'll hold on to those sweet memories nalang. hindi ko hahayaan mag-fade sila.
sarap magmahal. mahirap nga lang pag nararamdaman mong mag-isa ka nalang and you're slowly slipping away.
Labels: bookmark, emo, lurve
title: :') blue-est christmas
written on: Wednesday, December 17, 2008 | 2:42 AM
"i guess, love does fade. that sometimes, the heart does get tired of longing, hoping. that sometimes, you just have to accept that some things can never be. and that you should be contented with things as they are. leaving is a choice, staying is a choice. but you can never really ask someone to stay or leave. it's a choice they have to make for themselves. and sometimes, no matter how much you beg someone to stay or to leave, you really have no control over what they will choose."
eka: gab (sabay halika gesture)
gab: *hmm?*
eka: may bibigay lang ako sayo
gab: salamat. wala ako eh.
eka: *nods at tinry magsmile pero wa-epek*
parang ayaw niya ko maka-usap or makita. kelangang idaan sa tawa. *smile eka* kelangang makuntento. after all, hindi na siya saken. hinding hindi na. i wonder if one time, babalik... arrgh. kahit gaano ko gustong sumuko na, nagkakaroon pa din ako ng pag-asa. ang hirap naman ng ganito. kelan kaya ako makaka-alis sa ganitong sitwasyon. kelan kaya Papa God?
mahirap talaga talaga talaga. masaya siya *pout* habang ako, naghihintay na lingunin niya ako. nararamdaman ko na talaga. napagkanda-blue ng christmas ko. siguro dahil hindi kami nagkasama nung last days. sabi niya kahit isang araw lang magkakasama kami. eto naman akong si tanga, aasa-asa. sauce. wak na nga.
sana nalang maalala niya ako lagi sa binigay ko.
Labels: bookmark, christmas, lurve
title: the wretched christmas party day
written on: Tuesday, December 16, 2008 | 9:55 PM
siguro ito na ang pinakamalungkot kong christmas party. grabe talaga. ilang beses kong nakitang... err. ayoko na.
Labels: whatever, wretched
title: my bookmark
written on: Sunday, December 14, 2008 | 10:19 PM
introducing... my bookmark
hindi ko po maiwasang hindi mapogian mga kaibigan. sabi nga ni annatan, pang-model daw eh. nawala talaga galit ko eh :D
Labels: bookmark, fling, pogi
title: my first broken heart
written on: |
love is like a shoe. you can't walk without the other pair. if you lose your pair and you're with another shoe, it doesn't feel right... everything seems wrong. so if you think you have the perfect person and you make a good pair, take care of it.
sabi ko hindi na ako maghihintay. pero hindi ko mapigilan. masarap talagang maghintay at umasa. lalo na sayo. kahit na shattered na ako ng bonggang bongga at hindi mo ako nirereplayan, ni sinasagot... andito padin ako. i will not stop waiting for you... even if it means a liftime :')
have a meery christmas
Labels: bookmark, lurve, senti
title: december 1st
written on: Monday, December 1, 2008 | 12:39 AM
"do you know why people kill themselves? because they want to prow that somebody cares when they die."
yup. december 1st. two months since he broke up with me. a few days before our monthsary. i just still can't stand the pain. pero i'm trying my best not to show him that i'm still hurting. after all, hindi ako ang nawalan. contentment is the what counts.
kanina, practice, i love staring at him pero hindi puwede. hindi dapat. galit ako and i'm not supposed to look him the "puppy-stare." mejo malungkot siya kanina. he was alone. maybe he's already regretting *evil laugh* umiiral nanaman pagkamaldita ko :D
anyway, last nov 30, i texted prince gian. pero di naman nag-work-out :D ang landi eh. haha. gusto ko lang naman ng kausap.
me: super advanced happy birthday!
prince gian: thanks! who's this?
me:si eka to :D batchmate ni aj.
prince gian: thanks!
tapos kanina, we [aj and me] went to vcf to see him. hehe. turn-off kasi ang tagal niya pero ok na din :D
oh and hey! i changed my cellphone number :D
Labels: fling, kilig, sad
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no need to argue
[eka] she's your girl next door who loves the existence of cute monsters and the mere concept of vampires that glitter under the sun. she is 
16 years young
loving in silence
Roll The Credits by Paula DeAnda
Brisngr by Christopher Paolini
Chocolate Ecclair
