title: sembreak? WTH?!
written on: Saturday, October 31, 2009 | 6:45 AM
wala na akong quotes dahil inabduct ni mama ung phone ko na puro quotes sa archives ee. hmm. 2nd periodic test is damn finished! physics is good but i won't and i DON'T expect. kala ko nga uwian na after e. nasanay kasi akong last test ang science. econ really sucks! grabe hindi ko alam kung may tama ba akong nasagot dun ee. at kami kami nanaman ang naiwan sa classroom na nagte-test.
to hell with sembreak! dang x3! wala naman kaming semestral break. lalo na ang Media Center 1. [uno] photoshoot. person 3 ako at PM shift. at sa friday pa ang photoshoot ng MC. pero pupunta pa rin ako ng maaga dun para naman makita ko ang mga pagmumukha ng mga tao. *evil laugh* that's the advantage when you're an MC person. [dos] i finished mg Chapter 1 but haven't printed it yet. sira kasi ung computer at syempre di ka makapag-print kapag walang computer. laptop gamit ko ngayon e. so bukas ko na lang ipapa-print sa may Angel's Burger. [tres] project sa physics. damn. nakalimutan kasi ni Sir Glenn sabihin. bale per group naman. pero hell, ang hirap makipa-coordinate sa group lalo na ngayong petiks time. kelangan pa i-print sa A3 na glossy paper. swell, gastos nanaman bro. at friday na pasahan nun. buhay estudyante nga naman.
Don't Forget by Demi Lovato
o tapos? ay nakatanggap na ako ng 3 write-up. galing kena mizi, bibo at diego. aray, at ang naturingan pang best friend ang wala pang naibibigay. wee. ang gaganda naman ng kanilang mga sinulat. nakaka-flatter at nakakatawa nga naman oo.
at naaadik talaga ako sa Photoshop Elements 7.0 dahil hell, sa wakas nakakuha na rin ako ng matinong serial number na gumagana. ang ganda ng features. kahit na mejo nakakalula at nakaka-mangyan. tama nga naman si marian, photoshop is the game.
title: thursday palang?!
written on: Wednesday, October 21, 2009 | 6:08 PM
wala akong quote. dahil sira ang phone ko at sa lib ako nagnenet. yipee. for once napaka bilis ng connection compared kapag hapon. dang. sobrang haggard naman talaga ang english. bale 5 notecards palang nagagawa ko. tas magpiprint ako ng 3 articles na puwedeng gawan. so kulang pa ako ng 2. tapos ung chapter 1 pa na individual pa dapat. at may periodic pa. sobrang nakaka-stress.
tas sa pinoy, hindi pa ako tapos magtalumpati at kabado talaga ako ng sobra. hindi ko pa mamorize ung speech ko. kailangan ko na talagang umuwi ng maaga later on. rrr.
science. dang. IPSA ngayon tas bukas long test.
dumagdag pa ung pagka-depress ko dahil kay. mm. alam niyo na. di ko malaman kung anong trip niya ee. sabihin nalang talaga niya kung ayaw niya makita pagmumukha ko, papalipat akong section. aysows. as if puwede.
kala ko talaga petiks lang grade 10. di naman pala. at pictorials na next week. stress!
title: october 16th 16.10.09
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"it's tough when someone special starts to ignore you. but it's even tougher to pretend that you don't mind." october 16, friday. how come memorable dates are always on friday. siguro para hindi umpisahan ang linggo ko ng puro sad faces. pero para talagang pinapaalala sa kin ng tadhana. nung lunch, nagyaya si lara na dun kami sa bird cage kumain ng lunch. naikwento ko kina lara, kaniel at abbie na memorable ang date at ang place na un.
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october 16, 2007. halloween dance. frozen heat. sa multi, first time niyang hinawakan ung kamay ko. sobra ung staticelectricity. kabado pa ako nun. at conscious pa sa iisipin niya. first dance ko din siya. ever, in my whole life. kasi nung hakbang di ako nagsayaw ng kahit sinong lalaki. bird's cage. kami lang dalawa dun. nag-uusap, nagsaasbihan ng sweet things dahil the next day, semestral break na. mga ilang linggo din kaming hindi magkikita diba? ayun. naiiyak iyak kami at natatakot. ayaw naming matapos ang gabi. at winiwish na sana tumigil ang oras. tapos sa multi, habang malapit na mag-10 pm at nakaupo kami... kiniss niya ako sa cheek bigla. first kiss niya un sakin sa pisngi. lahat, noong october 16, first time. hinding hindi makakalimuta. katorse. lol.
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kaniel: bakit ikaw, ok lang na pinagkukuwentuhan ung moments? ba't pag kay lara, hinde?
eka: e kasi di na ko bitter *sabay tingin kay la*
Roll The Credits by Paula DeAnda
pero hell, di naman niya un naaalala. wala namang pakealam un. ano ngayon kung oct. 16? anong meron? balewala na sa kanya lahat un. e sobrang manhid na nun. di na nga nagseselos at gagawin niya na lahat ng gusto niya kahit alam niyang nasasaktan ako... dahil... masarap maging malaya. haaay.
ako lang talaga ang pumipigil sa sarili kong makapag-move on. walang kwenta.
title: my average day 15.10.09
written on: |
"if you'll ask me how many times he entered my mind, i'd be lying if i say many, cause he entered only once. since then, he never came out." Collide by Howie Day ...even the best fall down sometimes...
*yawn* antok na ko. my eyes are dropping na. i've finished making our physics powerpoint on head-monted displays and virtual displays [HMD] in case sir glenn calls on our group tomorrow. we have 2 crapping hours of physics tomorrow. the hell with it. bakit sa lahat ng subject, physics pa. curse math and physics.
Great Image, the studio that was going to shoot our graduations picture came in school to brief us on the upcoming event. it went good. hilarous actually. i love the vice president, so enthusiastic. charming. and ma'am rhea still hasn't edited my articles about OPM bands' free conceert and the arrival of Kim Bum here in the country. and because i slept in my mom's office, i wasn't able to get the edited article about ghost stories in UPIS. so still have to edit 3 articles to complete the requirements in MC. and i have to cut a picture in the newspaper for MC too. so much stuff to do. on october 29-30, the photoshoot. shoot it! haggard nanaman oo... rrr. i need BOOTS. pahiram naman please *beautiful eyes* [sheesh, as if beautiful.]
math. now this is hell. long test bukas o. at first subject. syempre ibabagsak ko nanaman un. damn. hindi ko talaga alam kung bakit inaaral yan e. well, hindi at ayoko lang talagang humanap ng puntong aralin un. wala naman akong maintindihan sa mga tinuturo. 3rd long test na to. at napaka-tulonggis ko padin. pag talaga long test, hindi ko na magawa ng maayos. eff.
text. disappointed. busted. sad. at masama ang loob. but i'm happy for my friend. at least, my friend has a reason to smile na. but hell, sobrang naplastic ko siya nung magkatext kami at tinamaan ako ng slight... slight lang naman... nung nalaman kong trip niya tong si isa pa niyang katext. like, *sigh* all this time i was... haha. whatever. BAWAL umasa. masama yun at isang kasalanan. maraming natitigok sa maling akala. gusto kong makausap un. nakakamiss ang golden times. ang sarap ng play safe at pakipot. [hidden messages in the paragraph. decipher if you can.]
Linger by The cranberries ...you know i'm such a fool for you...
Brisngr by Christopher Paolini, The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown
title: such a bullshit post 13.10.09
written on: |
"it's bad when you forget things you're supposed to remember. but it feels worse when you remember things you're supposed to forget." Tambay by Dagtang Langit
i don't care. i'm gonna reveal EVERYTHING here. like, everything. mad and sad and i feel like throwing a dozen plates in the garage and cry really hard and shit!
good evening. [supposed to be: wretched evening everyone! here i am again... blah blah blah.] yeah, i don't feel good. what am i doing now? hmm. i just finished my 2nd draft for the talumpati. woot! i had, like, 4 pages. 5 pages with the sources. kelangan ko makakuha ng sticker mehn! currently fixing my things. Eya gave my math notebook back after borrowing to copy notes. but hey! lara still has my physics notebook. and will study for a long test in econ.
english: had the booktalk. my book was A Farewell To Arms by Ernest Hemingway. it was about... i did NOT finish the book, to be honest. i read until chapter 22 and immediately went to the last chapter. *evil laugh* ang conyo ko nga habang nagbu-booktalk ako eh. demn.
--
tapos biglang. demn. pakshit. di nalang talaga naglason oo. bakit ako naiyak nung english? bakit hindi ko napigilan?
abbie: baby gusto mo ibigay ko sayo ung write-up ni gab?
eka: *shakes head*
abbie: kilala mo kung sino nagsulat?
eka: *shakes head... again*
abbie: hulaan mo...
eka: sino?
abbie: hulaan mo nga muna
eka: si gon?
abbie: hulaan mo nga!
eka: sabihin mo na kasi!
abbie: si mikmik.
bullcrap. gusto ko na talagang mag-walk out sa classroom at umiyak sa labas. oh shet. dapat hindi ko nalang tinanong. alam ko na talaga ung sagot eh. pero pinagpilitan ko parin. tears immediately came into my eyes. they wanted to escape. they wanted to get out. buti nalang may panyo ako. ANG SAMA NG LOOB KO.
niloloko ko lang sarili ko eh. bullshit. madami akong nakikita. madami akong naririnig. pero HINDI KO PINANSIN LAHAT YUN! HINDI KO ININDA YUNG SAKIT! BULLSHIT! unti unti naman akong nag-aaral na kalimutan siya aa... unti unti akong bumabangon. pero bakit unti unti din akong hinihila pababa? gusto kong MAKALIMOT. gusto ko nang mawala ng parang bula nalang. dammit! kung bakit ba kasi sa dinami-dami ng section, sa molave pa ako napunt.? kung bakit sa dinami dami ng lalaki, siya pa ung minahal ko. ayoko na. suko na ako. times two.
lara: baka kasi ni-love mo siya ng sobra-sobra na wala ka nang tinira para sa sarili mo.
eka: *silence at hindi na nakapagsalita*
words cannot describe the wway i'm feeling right now. words cannot describe the pain THEY have caused me. words cannot heal these wounds.
title:
written on: Saturday, October 3, 2009 | 11:06 PM
"loving someone is one thing. being loved by someone is another thing. but being loved by the person you love? that's just about everything."
Moonlight Over Paris by Paolo Santos
one time, i fancied finding bulletins in friendster about love and other teenage stuff. luckily, taj has one. it was entitled, 16 things girls don't know about guys. i read it again and decided to make it a jpeg image. made in Photoshop ImageReady. the 16th hit me badly.
16) even if you dump a guy months ago, and he loved you, he probably still does. and if he had one wish, it would be you to come back into his life. i wonder if he wished for me to come back when i broke up with him. i wonder if he still wants me back. because -- even if it hurts to admit, and i should be moving on -- i still want him BACK.
i should be moving on. i should be forgetting everything. i should be forcing myself to be happy. and to be happy for him. even if it should be just for him, alone. few of my friends are helping me. they're helping me even if they still want us to be together. they just don't want to me to cry again, they don't want to see me hurting. again.
mitz: nagmomove on ka na ba?
eka: oo naman.
mitz: fast forward mo na kasi.
eka: di naman ganun kadali un.
mitz: madali lang un. parang sa dvd. fast forward x2 lang un.
eka: o edi ikaw nalang kaya pumindot no?
mitz: o sige, kami ni lapot.
hala, mahirap naman kasi talaga. lalo na kung mahal mo pa ung tao. kailangan munang mawala ung love bago magmove-on. kailangan muna makalimot. pero dang hindi ko pa kaya. hindi na mawawala ung love... so does this mean that i won't be able to move on? matagal ko naman nang alam ung sagot jan e. matagal ko nang pinag-iisipan. matagal na akong nagbabalak. ewan ko ba. err.
time check: 11:48pm. 12 minutes till midnight. 12 minutes to march 4. 12 minutes until our 27th monthsary sana. at hanggang ngayon binibilang ko pa rin kung ilang araw, buwan at taon ko na siyang minamahal. to be precise: 795 days or 27 months or 2 years and 3 months. hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin ako nagsasawa o. nakakatawa nga naman. nakakapagod maghintay, masaktan at umasa. pero ang magmahal? parang hindi ko ata pinagpapaguran yun. but my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles.
namimiss ko nang maramdaman ung pagmamahal ng isang taong minamahal mo rin. ung sabik sa paghihintay ng pag-ngiti niya sa'yo. ung tuwa tuwing makikitang titingin din siya sa'yo. namimiss ko na ung kilig. paano kung isang araw, mamanhid na lang ako bigla. oo, bato na nga ako. pero paano kung hindi na talaga ako makaramdam? ayokong mangyari un. i will love you. forever plus one.
happy birthday gon and mia! may you have a wonderful year ahead.
happy 27th monthsary.
 here we go again
i'll talk less and you'll know me more.
ma. erika b. becoñado erika, eka, eks, ek, ka, karot, ekarot, baby, papi, kapatid, kopi, pankeik. Dil, QC. Philippines. 070493, 16 years young. UPIS, senior high. UPISSCA, Sangguniang Pangwika. Pep Squad: Tambolero. in-love, loving in silence. effusive. cuddler. capricious. sticky. trembly. emo? bitch. sentimental. cry-baby. drama queen. musically-inclined. receptive. sticky. malambing. secretive. tender. touchy. vampire. nocturnal. bookworm. claustrophobic. bajista. gitarista.
LURVES: soundtrip. mcdo. vampire wars. fashion wars. yo ville. farm ville. pc/laptop. unlitxt20. ice cream. vanilla shake. chocolate. candies.
toasts. brownies. cupcakes. onigiri. starbucks [chocolate cream chips frappe]. sisig. fresh milk. lollipop. sushi. strawberry. pictures. love quotes. love stories. slurpee. the sun. beach. nail polish. nike. yellow. plushies. bears. UP18. beyonce. NSYNC. westlife. taylor swift. lady gaga. paramore. vintage. stripes. privacy. doodles. books. mushrooms.
HATES: metal. hiphop. noise. the rain. backstabbers. plastic. over-acting. kulang sa pansin. kill-joy. spoiled brats. selfish. people who are not aware or those who simply don't think about other's feelings around them. rudeness and all of its components. violence and its forms. the dark. physics and chemistry and MATH. group messages. competitive-ness.
title: sembreak? WTH?!
written on: Saturday, October 31, 2009 | 6:45 AM
wala na akong quotes dahil inabduct ni mama ung phone ko na puro quotes sa archives ee. hmm. 2nd periodic test is damn finished! physics is good but i won't and i DON'T expect. kala ko nga uwian na after e. nasanay kasi akong last test ang science. econ really sucks! grabe hindi ko alam kung may tama ba akong nasagot dun ee. at kami kami nanaman ang naiwan sa classroom na nagte-test.
to hell with sembreak! dang x3! wala naman kaming semestral break. lalo na ang Media Center 1. [uno] photoshoot. person 3 ako at PM shift. at sa friday pa ang photoshoot ng MC. pero pupunta pa rin ako ng maaga dun para naman makita ko ang mga pagmumukha ng mga tao. *evil laugh* that's the advantage when you're an MC person. [dos] i finished mg Chapter 1 but haven't printed it yet. sira kasi ung computer at syempre di ka makapag-print kapag walang computer. laptop gamit ko ngayon e. so bukas ko na lang ipapa-print sa may Angel's Burger. [tres] project sa physics. damn. nakalimutan kasi ni Sir Glenn sabihin. bale per group naman. pero hell, ang hirap makipa-coordinate sa group lalo na ngayong petiks time. kelangan pa i-print sa A3 na glossy paper. swell, gastos nanaman bro. at friday na pasahan nun. buhay estudyante nga naman.
Don't Forget by Demi Lovato
o tapos? ay nakatanggap na ako ng 3 write-up. galing kena mizi, bibo at diego. aray, at ang naturingan pang best friend ang wala pang naibibigay. wee. ang gaganda naman ng kanilang mga sinulat. nakaka-flatter at nakakatawa nga naman oo.
at naaadik talaga ako sa Photoshop Elements 7.0 dahil hell, sa wakas nakakuha na rin ako ng matinong serial number na gumagana. ang ganda ng features. kahit na mejo nakakalula at nakaka-mangyan. tama nga naman si marian, photoshop is the game.
title: thursday palang?!
written on: Wednesday, October 21, 2009 | 6:08 PM
wala akong quote. dahil sira ang phone ko at sa lib ako nagnenet. yipee. for once napaka bilis ng connection compared kapag hapon. dang. sobrang haggard naman talaga ang english. bale 5 notecards palang nagagawa ko. tas magpiprint ako ng 3 articles na puwedeng gawan. so kulang pa ako ng 2. tapos ung chapter 1 pa na individual pa dapat. at may periodic pa. sobrang nakaka-stress.
tas sa pinoy, hindi pa ako tapos magtalumpati at kabado talaga ako ng sobra. hindi ko pa mamorize ung speech ko. kailangan ko na talagang umuwi ng maaga later on. rrr.
science. dang. IPSA ngayon tas bukas long test.
dumagdag pa ung pagka-depress ko dahil kay. mm. alam niyo na. di ko malaman kung anong trip niya ee. sabihin nalang talaga niya kung ayaw niya makita pagmumukha ko, papalipat akong section. aysows. as if puwede.
kala ko talaga petiks lang grade 10. di naman pala. at pictorials na next week. stress!
title: october 16th 16.10.09
written on: |
"it's tough when someone special starts to ignore you. but it's even tougher to pretend that you don't mind." october 16, friday. how come memorable dates are always on friday. siguro para hindi umpisahan ang linggo ko ng puro sad faces. pero para talagang pinapaalala sa kin ng tadhana. nung lunch, nagyaya si lara na dun kami sa bird cage kumain ng lunch. naikwento ko kina lara, kaniel at abbie na memorable ang date at ang place na un.
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october 16, 2007. halloween dance. frozen heat. sa multi, first time niyang hinawakan ung kamay ko. sobra ung staticelectricity. kabado pa ako nun. at conscious pa sa iisipin niya. first dance ko din siya. ever, in my whole life. kasi nung hakbang di ako nagsayaw ng kahit sinong lalaki. bird's cage. kami lang dalawa dun. nag-uusap, nagsaasbihan ng sweet things dahil the next day, semestral break na. mga ilang linggo din kaming hindi magkikita diba? ayun. naiiyak iyak kami at natatakot. ayaw naming matapos ang gabi. at winiwish na sana tumigil ang oras. tapos sa multi, habang malapit na mag-10 pm at nakaupo kami... kiniss niya ako sa cheek bigla. first kiss niya un sakin sa pisngi. lahat, noong october 16, first time. hinding hindi makakalimuta. katorse. lol.
---
kaniel: bakit ikaw, ok lang na pinagkukuwentuhan ung moments? ba't pag kay lara, hinde?
eka: e kasi di na ko bitter *sabay tingin kay la*
Roll The Credits by Paula DeAnda
pero hell, di naman niya un naaalala. wala namang pakealam un. ano ngayon kung oct. 16? anong meron? balewala na sa kanya lahat un. e sobrang manhid na nun. di na nga nagseselos at gagawin niya na lahat ng gusto niya kahit alam niyang nasasaktan ako... dahil... masarap maging malaya. haaay.
ako lang talaga ang pumipigil sa sarili kong makapag-move on. walang kwenta.
title: my average day 15.10.09
written on: |
"if you'll ask me how many times he entered my mind, i'd be lying if i say many, cause he entered only once. since then, he never came out." Collide by Howie Day ...even the best fall down sometimes...
*yawn* antok na ko. my eyes are dropping na. i've finished making our physics powerpoint on head-monted displays and virtual displays [HMD] in case sir glenn calls on our group tomorrow. we have 2 crapping hours of physics tomorrow. the hell with it. bakit sa lahat ng subject, physics pa. curse math and physics.
Great Image, the studio that was going to shoot our graduations picture came in school to brief us on the upcoming event. it went good. hilarous actually. i love the vice president, so enthusiastic. charming. and ma'am rhea still hasn't edited my articles about OPM bands' free conceert and the arrival of Kim Bum here in the country. and because i slept in my mom's office, i wasn't able to get the edited article about ghost stories in UPIS. so still have to edit 3 articles to complete the requirements in MC. and i have to cut a picture in the newspaper for MC too. so much stuff to do. on october 29-30, the photoshoot. shoot it! haggard nanaman oo... rrr. i need BOOTS. pahiram naman please *beautiful eyes* [sheesh, as if beautiful.]
math. now this is hell. long test bukas o. at first subject. syempre ibabagsak ko nanaman un. damn. hindi ko talaga alam kung bakit inaaral yan e. well, hindi at ayoko lang talagang humanap ng puntong aralin un. wala naman akong maintindihan sa mga tinuturo. 3rd long test na to. at napaka-tulonggis ko padin. pag talaga long test, hindi ko na magawa ng maayos. eff.
text. disappointed. busted. sad. at masama ang loob. but i'm happy for my friend. at least, my friend has a reason to smile na. but hell, sobrang naplastic ko siya nung magkatext kami at tinamaan ako ng slight... slight lang naman... nung nalaman kong trip niya tong si isa pa niyang katext. like, *sigh* all this time i was... haha. whatever. BAWAL umasa. masama yun at isang kasalanan. maraming natitigok sa maling akala. gusto kong makausap un. nakakamiss ang golden times. ang sarap ng play safe at pakipot. [hidden messages in the paragraph. decipher if you can.]
Linger by The cranberries ...you know i'm such a fool for you...
Brisngr by Christopher Paolini, The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown
title: such a bullshit post 13.10.09
written on: |
"it's bad when you forget things you're supposed to remember. but it feels worse when you remember things you're supposed to forget." Tambay by Dagtang Langit
i don't care. i'm gonna reveal EVERYTHING here. like, everything. mad and sad and i feel like throwing a dozen plates in the garage and cry really hard and shit!
good evening. [supposed to be: wretched evening everyone! here i am again... blah blah blah.] yeah, i don't feel good. what am i doing now? hmm. i just finished my 2nd draft for the talumpati. woot! i had, like, 4 pages. 5 pages with the sources. kelangan ko makakuha ng sticker mehn! currently fixing my things. Eya gave my math notebook back after borrowing to copy notes. but hey! lara still has my physics notebook. and will study for a long test in econ.
english: had the booktalk. my book was A Farewell To Arms by Ernest Hemingway. it was about... i did NOT finish the book, to be honest. i read until chapter 22 and immediately went to the last chapter. *evil laugh* ang conyo ko nga habang nagbu-booktalk ako eh. demn.
--
tapos biglang. demn. pakshit. di nalang talaga naglason oo. bakit ako naiyak nung english? bakit hindi ko napigilan?
abbie: baby gusto mo ibigay ko sayo ung write-up ni gab?
eka: *shakes head*
abbie: kilala mo kung sino nagsulat?
eka: *shakes head... again*
abbie: hulaan mo...
eka: sino?
abbie: hulaan mo nga muna
eka: si gon?
abbie: hulaan mo nga!
eka: sabihin mo na kasi!
abbie: si mikmik.
bullcrap. gusto ko na talagang mag-walk out sa classroom at umiyak sa labas. oh shet. dapat hindi ko nalang tinanong. alam ko na talaga ung sagot eh. pero pinagpilitan ko parin. tears immediately came into my eyes. they wanted to escape. they wanted to get out. buti nalang may panyo ako. ANG SAMA NG LOOB KO.
niloloko ko lang sarili ko eh. bullshit. madami akong nakikita. madami akong naririnig. pero HINDI KO PINANSIN LAHAT YUN! HINDI KO ININDA YUNG SAKIT! BULLSHIT! unti unti naman akong nag-aaral na kalimutan siya aa... unti unti akong bumabangon. pero bakit unti unti din akong hinihila pababa? gusto kong MAKALIMOT. gusto ko nang mawala ng parang bula nalang. dammit! kung bakit ba kasi sa dinami-dami ng section, sa molave pa ako napunt.? kung bakit sa dinami dami ng lalaki, siya pa ung minahal ko. ayoko na. suko na ako. times two.
lara: baka kasi ni-love mo siya ng sobra-sobra na wala ka nang tinira para sa sarili mo.
eka: *silence at hindi na nakapagsalita*
words cannot describe the wway i'm feeling right now. words cannot describe the pain THEY have caused me. words cannot heal these wounds.
title:
written on: Saturday, October 3, 2009 | 11:06 PM
"loving someone is one thing. being loved by someone is another thing. but being loved by the person you love? that's just about everything."
Moonlight Over Paris by Paolo Santos
one time, i fancied finding bulletins in friendster about love and other teenage stuff. luckily, taj has one. it was entitled, 16 things girls don't know about guys. i read it again and decided to make it a jpeg image. made in Photoshop ImageReady. the 16th hit me badly.
16) even if you dump a guy months ago, and he loved you, he probably still does. and if he had one wish, it would be you to come back into his life. i wonder if he wished for me to come back when i broke up with him. i wonder if he still wants me back. because -- even if it hurts to admit, and i should be moving on -- i still want him BACK.
i should be moving on. i should be forgetting everything. i should be forcing myself to be happy. and to be happy for him. even if it should be just for him, alone. few of my friends are helping me. they're helping me even if they still want us to be together. they just don't want to me to cry again, they don't want to see me hurting. again.
mitz: nagmomove on ka na ba?
eka: oo naman.
mitz: fast forward mo na kasi.
eka: di naman ganun kadali un.
mitz: madali lang un. parang sa dvd. fast forward x2 lang un.
eka: o edi ikaw nalang kaya pumindot no?
mitz: o sige, kami ni lapot.
hala, mahirap naman kasi talaga. lalo na kung mahal mo pa ung tao. kailangan munang mawala ung love bago magmove-on. kailangan muna makalimot. pero dang hindi ko pa kaya. hindi na mawawala ung love... so does this mean that i won't be able to move on? matagal ko naman nang alam ung sagot jan e. matagal ko nang pinag-iisipan. matagal na akong nagbabalak. ewan ko ba. err.
time check: 11:48pm. 12 minutes till midnight. 12 minutes to march 4. 12 minutes until our 27th monthsary sana. at hanggang ngayon binibilang ko pa rin kung ilang araw, buwan at taon ko na siyang minamahal. to be precise: 795 days or 27 months or 2 years and 3 months. hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin ako nagsasawa o. nakakatawa nga naman. nakakapagod maghintay, masaktan at umasa. pero ang magmahal? parang hindi ko ata pinagpapaguran yun. but my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles.
namimiss ko nang maramdaman ung pagmamahal ng isang taong minamahal mo rin. ung sabik sa paghihintay ng pag-ngiti niya sa'yo. ung tuwa tuwing makikitang titingin din siya sa'yo. namimiss ko na ung kilig. paano kung isang araw, mamanhid na lang ako bigla. oo, bato na nga ako. pero paano kung hindi na talaga ako makaramdam? ayokong mangyari un. i will love you. forever plus one.
happy birthday gon and mia! may you have a wonderful year ahead.
happy 27th monthsary.
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