Moonlight Over Paris by Paolo Santos

one time, i fancied finding bulletins in friendster about love and other teenage stuff. luckily, taj has one. it was entitled, 16 things girls don't know about guys. i read it again and decided to make it a jpeg image. made in Photoshop ImageReady. the 16th hit me badly.

16) even if you dump a guy months ago, and he loved you, he probably still does. and if he had one wish, it would be you to come back into his life. i wonder if he wished for me to come back when i broke up with him. i wonder if he still wants me back. because -- even if it hurts to admit, and i should be moving on -- i still want him BACK.

i should be moving on. i should be forgetting everything. i should be forcing myself to be happy. and to be happy for him. even if it should be just for him, alone. few of my friends are helping me. they're helping me even if they still want us to be together. they just don't want to me to cry again, they don't want to see me hurting. again.

mitz: nagmomove on ka na ba?

eka: oo naman.

mitz: fast forward mo na kasi.

eka: di naman ganun kadali un.

mitz: madali lang un. parang sa dvd. fast forward x2 lang un.

eka: o edi ikaw nalang kaya pumindot no?

mitz: o sige, kami ni lapot.

hala, mahirap naman kasi talaga. lalo na kung mahal mo pa ung tao. kailangan munang mawala ung love bago magmove-on. kailangan muna makalimot. pero dang hindi ko pa kaya. hindi na mawawala ung love... so does this mean that i won't be able to move on? matagal ko naman nang alam ung sagot jan e. matagal ko nang pinag-iisipan. matagal na akong nagbabalak. ewan ko ba. err.

time check: 11:48pm. 12 minutes till midnight. 12 minutes to march 4. 12 minutes until our 27th monthsary sana. at hanggang ngayon binibilang ko pa rin kung ilang araw, buwan at taon ko na siyang minamahal. to be precise: 795 days or 27 months or 2 years and 3 months. hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin ako nagsasawa o. nakakatawa nga naman. nakakapagod maghintay, masaktan at umasa. pero ang magmahal? parang hindi ko ata pinagpapaguran yun. but my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles.

namimiss ko nang maramdaman ung pagmamahal ng isang taong minamahal mo rin. ung sabik sa paghihintay ng pag-ngiti niya sa'yo. ung tuwa tuwing makikitang titingin din siya sa'yo. namimiss ko na ung kilig. paano kung isang araw, mamanhid na lang ako bigla. oo, bato na nga ako. pero paano kung hindi na talaga ako makaramdam? ayokong mangyari un. i will love you. forever plus one.

happy birthday gon and mia! may you have a wonderful year ahead.

happy 27th monthsary.

Moonlight Over Paris by Paolo Santos

one time, i fancied finding bulletins in friendster about love and other teenage stuff. luckily, taj has one. it was entitled, 16 things girls don't know about guys. i read it again and decided to make it a jpeg image. made in Photoshop ImageReady. the 16th hit me badly.

16) even if you dump a guy months ago, and he loved you, he probably still does. and if he had one wish, it would be you to come back into his life. i wonder if he wished for me to come back when i broke up with him. i wonder if he still wants me back. because -- even if it hurts to admit, and i should be moving on -- i still want him BACK.

i should be moving on. i should be forgetting everything. i should be forcing myself to be happy. and to be happy for him. even if it should be just for him, alone. few of my friends are helping me. they're helping me even if they still want us to be together. they just don't want to me to cry again, they don't want to see me hurting. again.

mitz: nagmomove on ka na ba?

eka: oo naman.

mitz: fast forward mo na kasi.

eka: di naman ganun kadali un.

mitz: madali lang un. parang sa dvd. fast forward x2 lang un.

eka: o edi ikaw nalang kaya pumindot no?

mitz: o sige, kami ni lapot.

hala, mahirap naman kasi talaga. lalo na kung mahal mo pa ung tao. kailangan munang mawala ung love bago magmove-on. kailangan muna makalimot. pero dang hindi ko pa kaya. hindi na mawawala ung love... so does this mean that i won't be able to move on? matagal ko naman nang alam ung sagot jan e. matagal ko nang pinag-iisipan. matagal na akong nagbabalak. ewan ko ba. err.

time check: 11:48pm. 12 minutes till midnight. 12 minutes to march 4. 12 minutes until our 27th monthsary sana. at hanggang ngayon binibilang ko pa rin kung ilang araw, buwan at taon ko na siyang minamahal. to be precise: 795 days or 27 months or 2 years and 3 months. hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin ako nagsasawa o. nakakatawa nga naman. nakakapagod maghintay, masaktan at umasa. pero ang magmahal? parang hindi ko ata pinagpapaguran yun. but my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles.

namimiss ko nang maramdaman ung pagmamahal ng isang taong minamahal mo rin. ung sabik sa paghihintay ng pag-ngiti niya sa'yo. ung tuwa tuwing makikitang titingin din siya sa'yo. namimiss ko na ung kilig. paano kung isang araw, mamanhid na lang ako bigla. oo, bato na nga ako. pero paano kung hindi na talaga ako makaramdam? ayokong mangyari un. i will love you. forever plus one.

happy birthday gon and mia! may you have a wonderful year ahead.

happy 27th monthsary.