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one of the boys

[eka] she's your girl next door who loves the existence of cute monsters and the mere concept of vampires that glitter under the sun. she is Allitrya Spelling from Ravenclaw. also, a typical Cancer girl. her heart beats for her only love but is loving in silence. she strives to live life to the fullest even if it slowly turns her down. she needs him. terribly. MORE?

currently:
16 years young
loving in silence
Roll The Credits by Paula DeAnda
Brisngr by Christopher Paolini
Chocolate Ecclair

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    title: such a bullshit post 13.10.09
    written on: Wednesday, October 21, 2009 | 2:46 AM

    "it's bad when you forget things you're supposed to remember. but it feels worse when you remember things you're supposed to forget."


    Tambay by Dagtang Langit


    i don't care. i'm gonna reveal EVERYTHING here. like, everything. mad and sad and i feel like throwing a dozen plates in the garage and cry really hard and shit!


    good evening. [supposed to be: wretched evening everyone! here i am again... blah blah blah.] yeah, i don't feel good. what am i doing now? hmm. i just finished my 2nd draft for the talumpati. woot! i had, like, 4 pages. 5 pages with the sources. kelangan ko makakuha ng sticker mehn! currently fixing my things. Eya gave my math notebook back after borrowing to copy notes. but hey! lara still has my physics notebook. and will study for a long test in econ.


    english: had the booktalk. my book was A Farewell To Arms by Ernest Hemingway. it was about... i did NOT finish the book, to be honest. i read until chapter 22 and immediately went to the last chapter. *evil laugh* ang conyo ko nga habang nagbu-booktalk ako eh. demn.

    --

    tapos biglang. demn. pakshit. di nalang talaga naglason oo. bakit ako naiyak nung english? bakit hindi ko napigilan?



    abbie: baby gusto mo ibigay ko sayo ung write-up ni gab?

    eka: *shakes head*

    abbie: kilala mo kung sino nagsulat?

    eka: *shakes head... again*

    abbie: hulaan mo...

    eka: sino?

    abbie: hulaan mo nga muna

    eka: si gon?

    abbie: hulaan mo nga!

    eka: sabihin mo na kasi!

    abbie: si mikmik.


    bullcrap. gusto ko na talagang mag-walk out sa classroom at umiyak sa labas. oh shet. dapat hindi ko nalang tinanong. alam ko na talaga ung sagot eh. pero pinagpilitan ko parin. tears immediately came into my eyes. they wanted to escape. they wanted to get out. buti nalang may panyo ako. ANG SAMA NG LOOB KO.


    niloloko ko lang sarili ko eh. bullshit. madami akong nakikita. madami akong naririnig. pero HINDI KO PINANSIN LAHAT YUN! HINDI KO ININDA YUNG SAKIT! BULLSHIT! unti unti naman akong nag-aaral na kalimutan siya aa... unti unti akong bumabangon. pero bakit unti unti din akong hinihila pababa? gusto kong MAKALIMOT. gusto ko nang mawala ng parang bula nalang. dammit! kung bakit ba kasi sa dinami-dami ng section, sa molave pa ako napunt.? kung bakit sa dinami dami ng lalaki, siya pa ung minahal ko. ayoko na. suko na ako. times two.



    lara: baka kasi ni-love mo siya ng sobra-sobra na wala ka nang tinira para sa sarili mo.

    eka: *silence at hindi na nakapagsalita*


    words cannot describe the wway i'm feeling right now. words cannot describe the pain THEY have caused me. words cannot heal these wounds.